"You're rubbing elbows with the moon..."

So, I know that at least ONE of you noticed the post that I posted last night and then deleted this morning.

I was REALLY stressing last night. But some sleep and before sleep thinking led me to the conclusion that it was not as much of a crisis as I was making it out to be.

I had one of the most vivid and real dreams I think I have had in my life. To make it brief, I will just skip to the part that involved all the emotion.

Before you get all curious, this dream is about Muse.

I was sitting at a table with the three band members. We were at a fancy dinner of some kind watching a video of the band in their early years (man...Chris's hair!). I was sitting next to the main singer Matthew Bellamy. He took the cap off a pen and started trying to poke me with it and mess with me. Joking around. He accidentally scratched me on the forehead with it. Apologizes. We continue to flirt a little. At some point he leans over to me and whispers (in his cute British voice), "You are perfect tonight." I turn away blushing. And I start thinking to myself..."I am awake. There is no way that I am dreaming this. This is real!" My heart is hammering and my face warm. My hand is resting on the table and his is resting only a few inches from mine. My arm is shaking a little. Slowly he moves his hand from the table onto mine. My heart explodes and in that EXACT second, I wake up.

I wake up with the feeling of his hand still on mine. My heart is hammering and my hand is actually shaking. I have never wanted a dream to be real so much in my life! I think that my mind just couldn't cope with the impossibility of the dream and forced me to wake up.

Sad.

So anyway, about my "crisis". I have recently been freaking out a little concerning the e-mail I got from the New Hampshire Conservation Corps last Friday. They want a phone interview. I set one up.

Now I am having second thoughts. They are mostly centering around my anxiety of being there for 10 months and the thought that as I continue to further my career and education I am not trying very hard to start that other part of my life. A family.

If you would like to call me and talk more about it I would love to have input.

But I am mostly figuring this out.

I don't know why I am freaking out so much especially since I don't even know if I've been accepted yet. When Rhode Island interviewed me over the phone, they said they wanted me at the end. I don't know how many applicants there are for this one, but they accept 30. So I have no idea how likely it is that I will be accepted.

A note on the fathead minnow experiment. There will be another attempt. Probably in November sometime. We will try to spawn the fish at the place we got them from. Then we will transport them back. From there...I am supposed to be working up a specific and set schedule for checking up on them. The theory is that I can work it around my work and class schedule as much as possible.

I have one thing to say about all this. I had better get an awesome letter of recommendation from this guy when I ask for it. Of course...I DID get a D in the class (that was without the project, but I still think that I am looking at a C. Still not good, so would he be the best person to trust with saying what a hard worker I am?).

To those it concerns: I Am now covered the weekend of the 10th. The game plan is this. I will either leave Thursday night and crash somewhere in St. Louis (Em, I know that you are going through a bit of a crisis. I am fine with bringing a sleeping bag and crashing on the floor somewhere) or leave SUPER EARLY Friday morning. The intent is to be in St. Louis early. Like 6:00 ish. Do that I cam do bird counts in the Bellefontaine cemetery and then in the surrounding area around it. (Em, if you feel like you are able you can come along. I don't NEED you too, but I hear it is a fantastic cemetery.) Then I will leave St. Louis and make my way to Carmel where I will meet Elise and hopefully Juli? We will do something. Then I will sleep and early Saturday (6:00am-ish again) I will go to a cemetery in Indianapolis. And then the surrounding area. More bird counts. Then we will drive to Ohio to go to the Bob Evans farm festival. Home that night and church on Sunday and I will be home on Sunday.

Also I now have the next weekend off if there is still a trip being made to the Renn. Fest this year. Last I head the 17th was the weekend we were trying for. Anyway, there's that.

So that is my life right now. Sadie will hopefully be groomed this week. Thursday, I am getting my brand spanking new stereo installed. Lets hope that for the money investment, my car lasts me at least another year or two.

My phone interview is a week from today. Wish me luck, whether that means getting the internship or not.

"Glaciers melting in the dea of night superstar sucked into the supermassive..."

Muse. Flying.

They are going to be performing on floating pillars on stage.

I am increasingly envious of those lucky jerks in Europe who get to see Muse in all their stage glory. Here in Missouri they aren't popular enough to get a stadium large enough to do the amazing things they do in Europe.

No.Fair.

Whatever.

So my first class was canceled today. That made things more fun.

This space bar is annoying me.

Why do I continue to sit at this computer? It is next to two air vents. I get cold.

Okay. This is me giving in just this once and giving Glee a try. Episode 1, here we go.

So far. Not digging the voice overs. And I think I'm going to have the brunette.

I do hope that the ridiculousness of this show is on purpose.

Drug dealer?

"This looks like barf!" Ha.

"I'll pee!" Ha.

I don't know if this show is good enough to watch each week.

Wow.

Anyway, moving on with life.

I got two new tires on my car.

That makes me feel better about the vehicle I am driving.

Now I just need to figure out why it's making strange noises and get a stereo installed.

I do like the background music in this show.

Okay, bye.

"No ones gonna take me alive..."

This morning, the day decided to start off by ruining my breakfast.

I was carrying a pop-tart and a bowl of Kixs to the car. I managed to spill the bowl of cereal all over me and my pop-tart. I was already cutting it close.

I had to get a new bowl of cereal, a new not soggy pop-tart, and a new shirt.

This made me late for class.

Later, I got a call form work. They need someone to work tonight at 5:00. I was really excited to go to FHE. So do I take the shift or not? Now that is going to be bothering me all day.

I can only guess what the rest of the day holds for me.

I am currently beginning my preliminary search for colleges that have Graduate programs in Behavioral biology/ecology or animal behavior.

I have not gotten many promising results. But I don't really know the best way to begin searching.

Okay, evil teddy bears. If you like Muse at all, click this link. It's a little strange, but what can you say? They're British.

Kirsti (or if you like to play guitar hero), if you are reading this, click this link. WTC?!? There is no way I could do that.

Okay. Enough of that. I am wasting too much time. I have an exam tomorrow I should be studying for.

Gosh, my hands are cold.

Actually, I have just a few more things.

If you like Dr. horrible or NPH you need to check out this link and this one.

Done and done.

Happy Monday everyone.

"United States of Eurasia"

I cannot stop listening to the new Muse album The Resistance.

It's got groovy beats, fantastic bass licks, and vocals...don't even get me started on that slice of awesomeness.

You are all just going to have to register at Muse.mu (it's free!) and listen to the album online. Better yet, just save yourself some times and go buy it from the store right now.

Best purchase of music you will ever make. I am 100% serious.

Listening to this album is like falling in love with Muse all over again like I did in 2004. There is nothing better than discovering new and wonderful music.

Along those lines, I have also recently re-joined eMusic. Just because they gave me 75 free downloads. Hey, who can say no to free music when you can just cancel your membership and get another 75 free songs when they invite you to join again in 6 months? Anyway, I downloaded Audioslave (who I already loved and am excited to become a huge fan of.) I also downloaded a bunch of music by The Decemberists. Thanks to Kirsti for that. The there is that Brad Paisley guitar album, the Keith soundtrack, and the Coraline soundtrack.

I have all this new music and all I find myself listening to is Muse. I can't stop.

Today is beautiful by the way. And I am finding it hard to think of anything not great about the next couple days.

Once I get out of my so-long-it-causes-leg muscle-deterioration class I am going to Target to buy clothes. Then if there is time, I will enjoy me some Bob Evans, as is tradition these days. If not, it is straight home to watch Supernatural and then sleep in!

Friday, I have my one class then some good times with Steven and Wii. Work may not be the greatest but it's money.

Saturday, I GET TO GO APPLE PICKING!!! YAY!!

It's downhill from there, though. We will probably be pretty dang busy because of the game on Saturday, and there it a bus of 50 people coming in Saturday night. Oh boy. Kill me now.

But before that, it's going to be awesome. I am excited. I love Thursday and Friday!

And JUST in case I didn't mention it before, I LOVE MUSE!

Alright. I have some things I could be doing right now. I'm going to get to that.

Ta-ta!

"Everybody loves a potato monkey."

Quote of the day above.

First things first

NEVER DOWNLOAD A VIRUS SCANNER CALLED GREEN AV!!! I will explain why in a little bit. First, a short story.

So I just embarrassed myself.

I got out of my last class 10 minutes early. For some reason I thought that my next class was at 10:00 (because it IS on Wednesday. So went into the dark classroom, turned on the lights and waited for class to start. A few other students trickled in. It wasn't until the FEMALE professor walked in (mine is a MALE) that I realized I was in the wrong class. I had gone to class 1 hour early.

I tried to act all casual and leave like I did all this on purpose.

Awkward.

So now I am blogging about it and wishing that there was a new Psych episode to watch on Hulu.

Now about the Green AV thing. I was surfing the net. Looking up something on google. I was trying to find the script to a rather obscure movie. I clicked on a link that looked promising and all of a sudden this pop-up came up saying that my computer was now being attacked by a bunch of viruses.

I freaked. I remembered that my anti-virus had recently expired and knew that getting a bunch of viruses was possible. A site came up on the internet browser suggesting I download a free virus scanner called Green AV to find the viruses on my computer. I allowed it. Still freaking out.

The scan told me that I had 41 viruses and looked legit. Pop-ups on my desktop kept telling me about all the harmful things trying to damage my computer. Even a Windows alert came up and told me I was in danger. This Green AV thing looked real and kept telling me to purchase the software in order to remove all the viruses on my computer. The software was $99. I was tempted but not stupid. I tried to look up info on Green AV. None of the sites "reviewing" it worked.

I shut down my computer and decided to deal with the problem later.

I looked up Green AV on mom and dads computer. Guess what? Green AV is a hoax. I can't believe I fell for it. It makes bogus scans of you computer and lies to you telling you that you have viruses and that your computer it being attacked. It constantly asks you if you want to fix the problem with all these realistic looking but annoying desk top pop-ups. I tried to get rid of it in the way that was suggested by an online article.

I also downloaded the free trial of AVG. Neither of these things have worked. It is still there. I'm not sure what to do.

The good news: my computer has no viruses. The bad news: these pop-ups are relentless and get in the way of the normal work I try to do.

I'll work it out at some point. A curse horrible people who do illegal and dishonest things!

I love Chris Cornell by the way.

AHHHH!! I just remembered! The Resistance come out TOMORROW! I don't get it until Thursday the 17th. BUT THAT IS STILL REALLY EXCITING!

Okay, I'm done.

Happy Monday.

"Some were born to sing the blues..."

So I just got finished watching the film adaptation of The Scarlet Letter with Demi Moore and Gary Oldman.

It's been a while since I have read the book, but I KNOW that's not how the book ended.

I just saw the best shirt ever. It said: "Trust me. I'm a Jedi."

I wish I were best friends with that guy.

Also, I went to the web-site "howmanyofme.com" and found that there are two people in the United States with the name Sarah Lambson. Also the first name that comes up under "similar names" is the name Sadie. How perfect is it that I chose the name Sadie for my dog?

Moving on. We are losing one of the managers at Bobs to the Lees Summit store. Part of me will be glad to have new blood and see him go. There were times when he wasn't the best manager. But I will also miss all the good times that we had together. He was a funny guy and our two years together was basically two years of trying to come up with a cooler "your face" comeback and prove to the other who is the superior being.

Of course he is a classic one-upper and has to be right all the time so our battles were often "won" by him.

Oh well. Time for life to move on. I just hope that this new guy is not worse.

Today has been a quiz day. In fact, it's been a quiz week. One yesterday, two today.

Who makes a 5 question quiz equal 100 points?

what to do with the next 1/2 an hour?

I wish I had a lot to update. Classes are rolling along. Mom asked me today which class was my favorite. I don't LOVE any of them, but Behavioral Biology is the most interesting. Behavioral Ecology would be great if not for the professor. Biometrics is just boring. Human Dimensions also. Geography of Cemeteries would be my favorite if it weren't such a LOOOONG class.'

It's nice to be appreciated for your hard work every once in a while. Sadly this doesn't happen enough at work, though it did on Saturday. Thanks Shawn.

This apple tastes horrible. That makes me sad. I can't wait for awesome not winter apples. Mmmm. I want to go apple picking.

Who's with me?

Oh, and Juli gets a treat for being the only one to tell me she knew the reference from my last post.

Oh yeah. Sadie still has fleas. No matter what we do. I'm just trying to get through until the first frost that will kill all of them. I am sick of flea bites on her and on ME!