Christmas...

So this is the magic tree that has become a huge Columbia visiting site for Christmas. Isn't it pretty in a grotesque way?


So it was a good Christmas. I love my family and I think I realized it with renewed fervor this year. Sometimes it becomes tense, but I love our time together that is so short infrequent. I will miss being away from school.

So in looking into myself lately I have discovered a few things. This all comes with the help of my two sisters Beckie and Emily.

I am really rude to my mom. A lot of times in an argument I treat her as an equal instead of my mother.

I let my little sister bring out the worst in me...this is because I hate it when people are calmer than I am in an argument.

One of my biggest pet peeves is the way my some people (my dad in particular) will assume that I am feeling a certain way and act accordingly. Sadly I do this to my little sister all the time. I have been trying to stop this.

I hate it when people dont take things I care about seriously.

When I have things looming over me, like a hard test, finals, a long period of work with no break etc...I get really stressed and irratable. Stay out of my way.

I am not in love with the person I liked in high school as many think I am. There is simply this nostalgic butterfly feeling I have everey once in a while around him...nothing more.

I dont like being put on the spot.

I dont like when people but into affairs that have nothing to do with them, thinking they can fix things.

This is good and I hope that this coming year will reveal more about myself that I didnt know before.

I Quit

So, I gave Hall**** (crap, I cant say who Im ranting about) my two weeks notice. I couldnt take it anymore. My boss was just too much. I can understand the stress that comes with Christmas. But that gives no one the excuse to treat other people like they are stupid. I dont want to say much more on this subject excpet that I am really happy to be out of that place. And a little sad that it had to happen this way. This song is, in a way, a good portrayal of how I feel. P.S. I got 3 C's and 3 A's. So my GPA stayed at a 2.8. At least it didnt go down any frther. I think I can bring it up to a 3.0. Thats all really. Sometimes you find that life trows things in your way that solve your problems for you...sometimes...

Ok Go, they just love to dance...

Had to post this to express my love of Ok Go and their dancing

In My Exploration

In the finding of myself and where I belong in all this hubbub, I have tried various different things with my hair. None of them completely drastic. My newest is the color that can barely be seen in the picture above. Darker and more wine colored. Ben was once again the masterful stylist. I think in all this dying, Im just trying to see how I feel about looking different and which look I prefer. I have to wait and see about this one. The reactions so far have been less that enthusiastic. But I like it so I feel that this is a new step in deciding who I am. I have also discovered a very important fact about myself. I love Ok Go. They have become my new favorite band of the moment. I like where my music taste is going right now and that makes me happy.

I Came Out Alive

So this music video is a little creepy. But it's my VICTORY SONG!!! Well at maybe more like my FINALS ARE FINALLY OVER WITH SONG!!! YAY! I am so happy. It was killing me. Literaly. I think I lost 5 years of my life fretting over those. But I hope I will come out okay...Anyway, Now I am free to spend all my time working. Isn't that just wonderful? I try not to think about it.

The diagram of my life in high school.. Not all of it was depressing. Some o f it was funny. wow, but some of this is...disturbing. How my emptions play out...hmmm.


This was apparently a good day

Remembering

I've just taken several trips down memory lane. And I have to tell you, it was a bumpy ride. Revisiting what I called the "black books" makes me realize how many issues I had during high school. Especiallly senior year. I think that 90% of my issues had to do with Matt Fetterly. Ha, I seemed to be in a constant state of confusion concerning him. I was either really annoyed and ignoring him, or I was sad that we weren't talking, or I was constantly wondering if he felt the same way about me that I did about him. And I have to tell you, I'm glad that I'm not obsessing anymore. It was haqrd to keep all that up. I have also come to the conclusion that I was a very ahteful person my Senior year...evil is what I wolud call myself. It's nice to look back and laugh about it all. Some of it does scare me a little. A few exerpts will come shortly.

Sticking It to the Man

I have to say that I have surprised myself...as well as several other people. I'm well known as a very timid person and an employee to be counted on. Someone you can call in and expect to almost always hear a "yes". And, to be honest, the last time that I had a problem with my place of employment, I lied about it. I said it was no real problem and accepted the load of crap they rattled to console me with a fake smile of understanding. This time I decided that it would be more productive to tell the truth than to lie. I told my manager that I wouldn't come in to work yesterday. When Asked why, I basically told her that...well, I didnt want to. Not because I am lazy (well maybe a little of that), but because I felt that it was rediculous to make employees of a movie rental store come into work when even most hospital clinics were closed. I said I didn't care if the District manager thought this was unacceptable and I tought it was stupid and pointless to have the other stores open and open our store at 5:00 pm. I was surprised at my boldness and so was she I could tell. The DM was not pleased at all but I am just getting sick of all the dung being served up to me and my fellow employees. Oh, and I find it interesting that I cant go around blogging that Mov*Edited* Gal*Edited* is a frustrating place to work, but my manager can go around and gossip, telling all the other managers about my little outburst...hmmm. So this is me. Timid, afraid to express too much of herself, always trying to please everyone...This is Sarah Lambson Unleashed...beware my hesitant fury!!!

Snow Pics

My fun in the first snow of the winter and the last snow day I will get.
From left: Covered Wagon, Stuck in my Snow Angle, Tracks
Bottom: Can you tell what it is? I'll give you a hint. If a dogs gotta go, he's gonna have to find another doggy-on-the-spot.

December first=snow day!

Last night I was quite upset that none of my classes had any intention of canceling. The snow was beautiful as it was faling, but I wasn't going to be able to enjoy it. The 5:30 I am awoken by the words..."MU has cancled classes for the day!" This hasnt happened since 1993 when we got 3 feet! And it will most likely never happen again. So I am going to take full advantage of it. Sledding, snowman building, snow angles all the way! My heart was heavy last night and now it is full of that magic. The magic of winter!

First Snow

I do love the snow. The White powder that comes down not the hard sleet that crusts everything over. But some of the magic has vanished now that I no longer feel the excitement of a potential snow day. In college classes aren't cancled. Speaking of not canceling, I have decided that some people really can be a winter time grinch. The conditions are so bad tonight that many businesses closed at 6:00. No such luck for me and my place of employment. I am excited that I am becoming less afraid of driving in the snow, so I guess I have my district manager to thank for that. So thank you for the oppritunity to neary go off the road into a snow drift because the roads are covered with 6 inches of lovely snow.
And a very sad thing is I havn't gone sledding in years because of my lack of time. Work and school make it hard to be a kid when you need it the most.

Muse - Starlight

My Favorite Band and currently My Favorite Song...it brings serenity. I like serenity

I Begin To See

This is a new thing for me and it's something in the making. It will start rough and will hopefully blossom into a world of my devising where I can discover myself. It's exciting to start something new and whether or not it will touch someone else out there I do not know. I can only hope.