Another addition to my managerie

Her name is Sadie. She's two years old and feeling just a bit needy and abandoned.

She is my new little Yorkie. She doesn't like to be separated from people. She despises her kennel. She barks a little when left alone. She also poos on the floor in order to tell me just how much I have offended her.

She is a little bit lazy. She isn't very active on her leash.

But she is sweet and adorable and lovable. For such a tiny dog, she is a little bit of a bed hog. She doesn't bark unless she is left alone.

She isn't house trained.

She isn't spayed.

She needs some shot updates.

Overall, I am very happy to have her.

It will take time to get her trained up a bit. But I am confident that I can do it.

I feel horrible every time I have to leave her alone. I'm sure that's normal. In time, I will get over it.

I you have not seen The Painted Veil, you NEED to. It is a fantastic movie. I own it, so if anyone want's to borrow it, let me know.

I am officially going to go to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir concert on June 20th. Me and Ben. I was really hoping to get a few more friends involved. But I guess $37.00 was too pricey. Now it will just be me and Ben which might be a little awkward. He said he wanted to go, but when I talked to him last, he didn't sound all that excited. Perhaps he was distracted by other things. I don't know.

I just know that this is going to be one of those friendships that won't last much longer.

It is always sad to grow further and further away from someone you were so sure was going to be your best friend forever.

Anyway, time for a nap.

I hope to make some phone calls to apartment complexes to see if there are any worth moving into in August.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Wednesday.

A few changes

Now that the semester has ended, I find myself making some decisions and accepting new challenges.

The terrifying unknown of the rent/money situation seems to have alleviated itself for the time being.

I have been picking up shifts at work. Mostly in the morning. Because I work most nights, this means that I have been working a few doubles. They may be exhausting, but my checking account is starting to recover from the drain it experienced last month.

I have a new potential roommate. Rachel. She is a really sweet sister from the University ward. We are currently looking for apartments/duplexes that are on ground levels, $500 and under per month and pet friendly. There are a few options. Some with really pricey pet deposits though. I am hopeful.

Speaking of pets, as of tomorrow, I will be the proud new owner of a young female Yorkie. One of my co-workers needs someone to take her little dog off her hands and I, being the sometimes spontaneous (especially when it comes to pets) person that I am, jumped at the opportunity. I'm getting her for free. I get to keep all the leftover dog food as well as the leash and other things that this co-worker purchased for her. Most pf you will think that this is a bad idea and tell me that I haven't thought this through.

All I have to say to you is...to late!

Maybe it will be a horrible mistake, but I have ALWAYS wanted a Yorkie and up pops an opportunity to have one. I am taking it.

End of the semester grades:

-British Literature: A
-Folklore: A
-Animal Population Dynamics: B
-Practicum: B-
-Ichthyology: D+

Current GPA-2.9 (I was really hoping to get it to a 3.0 this semester. I'll keep my fingers crossed for the next.)

There is obviously something horribly wrong with this picture. Sarah Lambson does not get a D+ as her final grade in anything. But not all hope is lost. As you all know, I have yet to complete this fish experiment. The next (and hopefully successful) trial will be next week. The first week in June. I am very hopeful. I just want to get this over with. With the completion of this project, the paper, and the poster, I hope to bring that D+ to at least a C. A nice round C. Sarah Lambson can get a C and live with it. I REFUSE to take Ichthyology over again because I got a D+.

Next semester schedule:

-Biometrics
-Behavioral Biology
-Behavioral Ecology
-Human Dimensions in Natural Resources
-Russian Literature.

Hm...Maybe I shouldn't have made it so hard on myself. I should have taken easier classes huh? Made it easier to get a 3.0? Yeah. Oh well. I'll get over it.

I'm a bit sleepy.

Zzzzzzzz.......

Breathing

In, out.

It feels good.

But I don't feel the complete sense of freedom that usually accompanies the end of a semester.

I am 100% sure that this has to do with the following things:

1.I still have a project on the effects of low oxygen on fathead minnow egg development to complete, write a paper, and make a poster for.

2. I was so sure that I would be participating in another internship this year, but mis-communication and lack of money has forced my to stay home.

3.I want to be doing something with my life and I'm just not there yet.

It doesn't help that this seems to be engagement season for everyone single and Mormon. It's always exciting for those parties getting engaged, but a bit of a downer to those of us not so lucky. I can only blame myself, really, but it does make you very aware of your single status when people are prepping to be eternally bound to their companion.

Enough of that rant.

Gloria is cooking something with octopus downstairs. My door is open so I can hear my home teachers when they arrive and the smell is rather pungent.

Not horrible, just...strong.

*****

Home teachers just left. It was good to have them here. I don't get that enough. Too bad one of them is leaving for the summer.

"Are you doing an internship this summer?"

No. No I am not. The more I think about that the more I regret it. I wish I had tried harder. Still, volunteering is also a good thing. Sometimes when you volunteer and do a great job, they take that into account and even try to get you to stay by offering you a job. I'm not counting on it, but you never know.

Sigh.

What is this feeling? I don't understand it. A pressure on my heart and my soul. Not bad, not good...restless? Not even that. I don't have a word for it and that means I don't know how to go about figuring it out.

"Children should listen"

I have to admit that I saw this coming from a mile away. EVERYONE told me that this would happen.

I thought that since things had been okay so far that maybe they would continue to be okay until the end.

This is all referring to my living situation. One of the individuals living with me is unable to pay rent or electricity. I don't know if she is going to be able to pay her portion of the water bill either.

So, now what? Do I call the landlord or the water company or the electricity company and tell them all that we cannot pay on time this month? Should that be MY job? Why am I the one who has to step up?

I have a headache. I slept too long this afternoon.

Why does this have to happen now? Right before finals week? Why didn't I prepare better for this?

I knew that she didn't have a steady job that was bringing in any significant income. Why didn't I just talk to her about it? It's uncomfortable. WHY!!

I don't want to think about it. I have a simulation on common pipistrelle bats figure out.

Not to mention a bison culling simulation to run and write a report on.

Then there is the paper on vulgar humor. And the studying for my last fish test which I have to get a 70% or better on this time in order to get a C for the semester.

And yet, here I am feeling sorry for myself because I didn't listen to my instincts and all my friends and family concerning this roommate situation.

Sorry I didn't listen to you all.

I am unhappy.

On the plus side, Elder Bednar gave a good talk. I don't think that blogging takes me away from the spirit. Often it invites it. Not if I am writing bad things about people.

So I will do my best to be charitable towards this roommate. Try to help her as much as I am able.

I wish that my headache would go away.